Constantly deal with my girlfriend’s panic triggers any longer. I think Now i am done.

I' meters 34m and I' ve been dating my sweetheart 29f for over two years now, everything has really been great except for one particular problem – she arbitrarily gets triggered when I start physical contact with her when we' re in public. This is not a regular thing, but when this happens, she does not react well.

The triggers are not particularly intimate. Examples would be putting my arm around her, leaning close to her, kissing her on the quarter, etc . Things that would be normal for a close couple. Problem is she gets triggered randomly, without warning and sometimes we are able to go months without an concern. She has never once a new problem when we' re alone together.

I also have to make clear she has specifically asked me to not avoid touching her in public, I' ve offered to keep my range when we' re out together and she has insisted I shouldn' t which she is hoping to get over it. She has spoken to her counselor about it.

I honestly have not liked it, I sometimes feel like I have to walk on eggshells around her, yet we' ve mostly addressed it. But on Friday we were out with a group of friends and her response was just awful. The girl was sitting at the bar talking with a group, I actually came up next to the girl and hugged her about her waist. She considered look at me and then elbowed me VERY HOT in the chest (naked enough to keep a bruise) and screamed " back the fuck up off of me! " in front of her sisters and a dozen of our friends. Literally no one had any idea how to respond.

In that instant, I was done. A few people texted me to ask if I was okay, I just replied asking that they please ensure she gets back to her apartment safe. I walked out and she didn' t even notice. I obstructed her number and removed her off social media, called an uber home, packed a suitcase and hopped into my car to leave and spend Christmas with my family instead of hers. My brother and sister know the story and think I did the right thing, I haven' t told anyone else inside my family yet.

Her mom and sisters have been contacting and texting me non-stop since then trying to get me to provide her another chance. Her sister helped me pick out a diamond ring, I was going to propose more than new years – I actually don' t know when she even knows this. I honestly can' big t even imagine proposing to her any more, after what she did in front of everyone we know I don' t think I can forgive her.

We don' t know in the event that anything can convince me to go back at this point.