My (18F) bf (18M) pissed on me during sex without having asking and had a breakdown after.

Hey everyone, so for some background my bf and I have been dating for about a year and some change now. He’s had some sexual issues in the past (sexual abuse, etc) but it hasn’t impacted our sex life. We have quite a normal sex life about once per week and I find it fulfilling tbh. He makes me feel at ease and I do the same.

That all changed last night around nine pm. Him and I started getting into it (I generally engage things since he is a sub) and it has been getting hard so we did some foreplay and fucked. Not even 15 minutes into fucking, he pulls out plus starts FULL ON PISSING on my torso and encounter. I was shocked and baffled for the first few seconds yet once I realized that which was happening, I jumped supported and moved on the other side from the bed. He just kept pissing until he was done and the sheets had been soaked.

Immediately after he pissed, he said sorry and went to grab paper towels to clean up his mess. I had been just in shock the whole time and went to take a shower as fast as I could. After my shower I was released to a bed covered within paper towels and my bf crying on the floor and shaking.

I just stood there and stared at him plus honestly felt disgusted. He or she really broke my trust, not to mention the fact he pissed all over me and the bed. He looked up at me and asked if I was okay. I actually said I was and then questioned him to get his stuff and leave my house. Looking back I probably should never have been so harsh but it was like I was speaking to a completely different person. It took awhile but eventually he left and I was able to wash my sheets and process what happened.

He texted me like 30 minutes later on apologizing again and stating his ptsd/trauma took over and couldn’t control himself. We haven’t texted back and he is just been blowing upward my phone with i’m sorry. I feel so violated by him and I honestly require a couple days before We talk to him again.

Am I being as well harsh? Any advice??