My (F33) fiancé (M43) wants to delay starting a family by 6mo’s, so his paternity leave aligns w/ HUNTING season..

So I need some outside perspective, bc I feeling extremely hurt and confused by what my fiancé said tonight..

Some backstory: Both of us want a family VERY badly, and have discussed this from day one. Him especially, has been adamant about finally having children and settling down, now that he’s “finally found a good woman/someone he loves”. (Plus he’s 43). Our relationship is very healthy, happy, and drama free. I can count 2 fights in 3 yrs, and we’re very good at communicating our feelings overall.

We got engaged a yr ago, getting married very soon – nothing big at all, both happy just eloping honestly! Our entire relationship though, he’s wanted to get me pregnant, bc he doesn’t want to wait any longer, since he knows I’m “the one” and all that. I told him I wanted to wait though til I was ready, and I’m more traditional, so I wanted to be married first.

Anyways. We FINALLY, after THREE years of waiting, are at a good point in our relationship and are ready to start trying to conceive. (So exciting, so surreal!) I found an OBGYN, downloaded an ovulation tracking app, stopped taking ALL my meds – some of which I REALLY depended on – all to prepare for this super exciting and long awaited time! But then tonight… FIVE minutes before he goes to bed… he says that “we should wait til March to start trying, so that way I can be on paternity leave during hunting season”….. I literally thought he was JOKING at first, and I said as much! But deadpan, not joking at all, he just repeated himself… then kissed me goodnight, and went off to bed. As soon as he left, I couldn’t hold my tears back.. I’ve been so upset and unsettled since, and a thousand terrible thoughts are racing through my mind as to why he’d say something like that… I mean, for THREE years, he’s been SO excited and verbal about how eager he was to knock me up! He really struggled w/ waiting til I was ready. But now that I am finally ready, suddenly his excitement has dissipated?? And he wants to WAIT? Maybe I’m just overthinking things – but I can’t help but think there’s another reason why he said that. Or are men really that simplistic, that he cares more about HUNTING than starting our family right now?? Whatever the case may be, I’m just feeling so crushed. I was so happy to finally give him what he wants, what we both want – and was so happy to make him happy – but now I feel so rejected and hurt and confused, and like his priorities are skewed..

(Btw, I plan to sit down and discuss things w/ him tmrw, just didn’t wanna get into a whole thing tonight at his bedtime since he wakes up very early for work.)

Hoping to get some outsider perspective on this matter, to help w gauge whether I’m overreacting/overthinking this or not.. ?

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